My Daddy

What do I say here that hasn't already been said? My Daddy passed away on July 24. I'm crushed. I swear it gets harder as the days go on. It is slowly sinking in that I'll never see him again in this lifetime. His viewing and memorial were really nice. He had SO many friends and family come to see him. It makes me happy to know that so many people love him. We had a party for him the night of his viewing down at the Carson's house. All his old high school/Zuma buddies were there. It was really awesome. Trey played the guitar and Quint played the harmonica together. Dad would have really loved it. It made me sad though.. His friend Tim was there. And in the light of the Tiki torches I thought he was Dad. I did the double take and almost ran up to him. I'm sure I'll keep doing things like that for a long time.

I'm going to miss him so much! I'm so sad that he'll be missing out on so much of my life. He got to walk Sara and Brynn down the aisle, but he left before walking me. When you're a little girl you dream of your wedding day... having your Daddy walking you down the aisle and then dancing with you to a song he picks out. And I don't get any of that. I'll never get the picture of a proud Grandpa Gardner holding up my children when they are born. I'll never get the joy of having my father help me with my garden and compost in the backyard of my new home. I'm so sad. I just want him back. :(